When I say I’m a perfectionist, what I’m really saying is I’m scared. I used to think that I was doing the right thing, that I had higher standards than everybody and that perfectionism was something to aspire to. Over the last few months I’ve come to realise that it was in fact more of a hindrance than an asset; it was preventing me from developing my skills and making moves I knew I was capable of. It was fear dressed up as ambition. It seemed a good look for a while, but it’s time I put that mask away.
A few weeks ago I stumbled upon a blog post by Kevin Plattret called How I did my website in one day and it really resonated with me. He talks about how his perfectionism has stopped him from trying things and how he’s working on changing. I’ve felt that crippling feeling too, it isn’t fun.
Over the last few months I’ve been consciously taking steps toward ridding myself of these restrictions. It has required me to let go of my ego and put things out there for the world to respond to. I launched Hard Food, a website showcasing Caribbean literature and art, which I maintain and edit; I wrote about depression; and I built this blog.
Deciding to start a blog was a big step for me, I’ve been in the industry for about a year and a half now but I’ve always been a bit hesitant to write about tech. Walking into tech meets and talks always made me feel like I chose the wrong door on Takeshi’s Castle. Now I’m much more confident, partly because I’ve stopped focusing on what I don’t know and became excited about everything I’ve yet to learn.
Win or Learn
Ultimately, I’ve learned to Take Chances, and it feels incredibly rewarding when you do that thing you were scared to do and it comes off. But it’s equally as important to respond well when things don’t go your way and to learn from it. It’s all pretty basic stuff, but putting these things into practice can be tricky and I have to remind myself to do the basics and to go easy on myself.
On that note, I hope you enjoy reading and let me know of any bugs or issues you encounter on the site by visiting the repository. Fun times ahead!